Ive been missing.

Yes I know Ive been away and lazy for quite long, I had no inspiration and couldnt find the mood to type anything or share anything with you. Its been a while and Ill try to update once in a while for now since yea, I have at least some spice in my life at the moment compared to before I started college.

Well just to recap from the time I left my last post till now, its been a while, alot has went by even in that short duration. Things are getting pretty tricky right now, lots of big decisions to do, life to keep up with, though things may seem alil alright and happy and carefree and all but deep down under, I can just suddenly break down and fall like its the end of the world. In any case, ive managed to avoid going down that path for now, although there were times I almost did, tempted to and forced to.

Life is good, good as in good. If you know how to manage it, its good. Im enjoying myself currently, but have some ups and downs like usual, who doesnt? Things are getting alil busy too, I have classes during weekdays except Mondays and all of it are mostly from 11 - 7 including travel time and the time I actually reach the front door of my home. So its pretty tiring if you look at it one way and its fun too if you look at it the other way. Fun as in I have 3 practical days and only 1 theory day. Basicly Tuesday = all my theory classes and the rest are all my practical classes.

Fun is fun, fatigue is fatigue. The hours are long, standing and walking about and working is another thing. It doesnt matter where, restaurant or kitchen, both makes me stand for long hours and by the time I get home I wont have enough strenght to last till 2 am anymore, well sometimes I do without doing anything cept stone on the pc that is. My days without college is boring, im serious, its like I just nid to get out of home to entertain myself, ive slowed down on gaming alil and probably that's the reason why I feel so bored at home and nothing to do. I even picked up reading as a new hobby, plus I even share a few books with my col mate.

First week of col was nothing..pretty boring with all those orientation and stuff like that, its pretty shitty, but team building session was an exception. Orientation night came later the following week, and it kinda...sucked. No comments anyway, it was more like a senior night rather than a junior night. Anyhow classes went back to normal after that and that was when the fun begins, met lots of ppl, from A-Z, good and bad, stupid and smart, funny and lame, and so on. Its pretty normal anyway, nothing more surprising when meeting new people.

Skipping that, I take the train to col, its much easier rather than driving, saves money and avoid traffic, but the trains are really unreliable, they have no fixed timing and sometimes they can even break down for hours. Ive already experienced it on my 1st day of class too, ran in class an hour late =.=. Damn suay. Things are pretty hectic and at the same time pretty calm and easy, depends on the days and the occasions that are about to unfold. The area around my col is pretty nice, very nice to go around, you have a mamak on the left and chinese restaurants on the right, its hardly a minute walk away too. Pool is much cheaper compared to mv, much much cheaper, its only 11 for an hour, but sad thing is I dont have any kaki to play with there. There is but...not so often, pretty saddening.

My lecturers are gud, well for now I guess. Maybe term 2 Ill meet some devils with really sharp forks poking my ass. People around there are nice, friendly, I guess in any case everyone is new so, its only normal to mix around. Some are antisocial, lcly and annoying. Well, cant help it, Ive met ppl like that anyway. Nothing big.

So what esle? I cant really remember anything esle to say either. All I remember was one day while I was going home taking the LRT I noticed the board of rules saying "NO SWING GUM". I was like wtf is swing gum? I certainly dont think it exist, must be another typo error or just really bad english. Im gonna try Rapplez, a 3d on9 mmorpg, hopefully I can play it, for fun. Who wants to join me? =D Although I said I slowed down on gaming, but that was not because I wanted to, It was because I really got bored of all the games I have. In example Dota, it hasnt been really appealing to play it anymore after 2 years ++ and still going. My ps2 has been taken by my bro, I have to resort to old games such as SC and Heroes3 to keep myself entertained omfg. If it wasnt for those two I think id be out almost everyday and would be spending like mad. Nid to budget man.

Ive been having emo days lately, but im slowly getting back on my feet anyways. Its just a passing feeling where I think back of the past memories and how I was a failure in some crucial events. Its really really sad, I really do regret it. I should have waited alil longer, probably itll work out. I dont know why im still clinging on to this matter even though it has been almost 2 years +. This isnt the 1st time for that matter, it has been going on ever since that day. Probably my biggest regret in my life, the wrong choice of words, the wrong timing, the wrong move. Damn, I wanna turn back time.

I know ive typed out alot of bullshit, I dont know if you would wanna read the whole thing, its up to you, and its basiclly a recap of all the things that happened for the last 2 months and so on, probably forgot lots more. Im not sure, but I wont say ill come back and edit it because Im too lazy =p, but im sure thats about 80% of what happened so, I guess its still okay. Mother's Day is coming, got anything for ur mum yet? =) I wonder what should I get this year.

In any case, ill start updating once again, I wish I had a cam, it would be much more happening if I had one, I promise that. If I can get my cam phone soon enough, probably lots more interesting updates to come.