Malaysia, tanah tumpah darahku

As we move on step by step to Vision 2020, we are getting more advanced, and ahead of other nations, we slowly march towards our homeland's target, Vision 2020. So to recall the nine challenges we must face and overcome of Vision, Here they are


The first of these is the challenges of establishing a united Malaysian nation with a sense of common and shared destiny. This must be a nation at peace with itself, territorially and ethnically integrated, living in harmony and full and fair partnership, made up of one 'Bangsa Malaysia' with political loyalty and dedication to the nation.

So as we can see, this objective has already been almost achieved. Though there are a few minor problems here and there, Its really not a biggie because we still have more than a decade to fix it.


The second is the challenge of creating a psychologically liberated, secure, and developed Malaysian Society with faith and confidence in itself, justifiably proud of what it is, of what it has accomplished, robust enough to face all manner of adversity. This Malaysian Society must be distinguished by the pursuit of excellence, fully aware of all its potentials, psychologically subservient to none, and respected by the peoples of other nations.

Currently, as we all know Malaysia is already respected in many manners by people from other nations, like our tourism, culture, people and so on. Yea we may have a few wrong points here and there, like rude drivers, bad services in certain places, but overall we should realize that there are good people too who would compensate for that. Through this too, we Malaysians are slowly moving to a more open minded society and able to accept changes plus facts that concerns us or other people and we are slowly pushing our effort to achieve success and excellence.


The third challenge we have always faced is that of fostering and developing a mature democratic society, practicing a form of mature consensual, community-oriented Malaysian democracy that can be a model for many developing countries.

As for this, likewise refers almost identically to the first challenge just alil bit different here and there. Basicly, "kita rakyat Malaysia mesti hidup bersatu-padu demi kebaikan semua" or in other words, living in a democratic and matured manner to be a role model for many other rising nations


The fourth is the challenge of establishing a fully moral and ethical society, whose citizens are strong in religious and spiritual values and imbued with the highest of ethical standards.

We lack quite much from this challenge because its very common, Malaysian are just rude. As we was voted quite a hit on the rudest country. I dont know if this is gonna get worse or better but the way things I look at now, I hardly meet or bump into any kind rudeness so often, therefore I personally think we Malaysians are slowly getting more polite and understanding throughout the years and plus an increase in our religous and spiritual values.


The fifth challenge would be the establishing of a matured, liberal and tolerant society in which Malaysians of all colors and creeds are free to practice and profess their customs, cultures and religious beliefs and yet feeling that they belong to one nation.

This is something like what Ive learnt or maybe to those who do moral studies, something like "kebebasan agama" and "sikap keterbukaan" and yea, like I stated in the second challange, we Malaysians are slowly moving towards this goal, and yet are already practicing it. Just well, tolerant and matured needs to be brushed up alil and there we go! I dont see any problems in customs, cultures and religous beliefs because we all do what we practice and we respect each others faith and beliefs therefore I dont see any problem in this. Besides, its interesting to know other peoples culture and religious belief, dont you think so? Well of course the ones in the history book is plain boring ==, but if we eye-witness it, I think it would be more memorable, probably some would not agree with me, but well, that's the way it is.


The sixth is the challenge of establishing a scientific and progressive society, a society that is innovative and forward-looking, one that is not only a consumer of technology but also a contributor to the scientific and technological civilization of the future.

So many things has changed since the last 10 years, and Im sure Malaysia too will slowly work to have a far more better and advance tech than now as we move on to vision 2020. In example the M-mobile, well yea it might suck real bad unlike other brands but that's a sign Malaysia is advancing slowly right? xD


The seventh challenge is the challenge of establishing a fully caring society and a caring culture, a social system in which society will come before self, in which the welfare of the people will revolve not around the state or the individual but around a strong and resilient family system.

Same reason as challenges above. Once again, we Malaysians must unite in order to achieve the objective above.


The eighth is the challenge of ensuring an economically just society. This is a society in which there is a fair and equitable distribution of the wealth of the nation, in which there is full partnership in economic progress. Such a society cannot be in place so long as there is the identification of race with economic function, and the identification of economic backwardness with race.

Like said above, we need to share and work among the society and its many different races equally and justly. We cant have something like Malay 70% Chinese 20% Indian 7% and others 3% or vice versa. Its something that will discriminate the people and those who earn more, will look down on the others. This in my opinion would probably be the hardest objective to ahcieve.

Finally the ninth challenge is the challenge of establishing a prosperous society, with an economy that is fully competitive, dynamic, robust and resilient.

In other words, a fully developed country with maximum productions and qualities plus oppurtunities, with a peaceful and harmonious life.


The bottom line is, althought Malaysia has its pros and cons, like how we dont have many hawt prostitutes running around for customers but we have "bapuks" with arms bigger than mine looking for customers, or maybe we dont have brothels but we have the back-alley, or maybe we have too many rape cases until there's at least one case in our everyday newspaper, or maybe we dont have uniforms that consist of short skirts like in Japan, or we dont have volcano
eruptions nor frequent and massive earthquakes, or we dont have an education system that pleases everyone, we still live in a wonderful country if you look from a different perspective, after all give Malaysia a chance to develope and reach its goal, Vision 2020 before you make any final thoughts. One thing still good is, piracy! xD.

Anyhow I like Malaysia because in any other country, you will face different sets and sorts of problems unlike or alike in Malaysia, its just everywhere you go in this world, it will be almost the same but that's from my shallow point of view.
Either way, if you have a different opinion about it, that's yours, and your choice to make a difference.

SELAMAT HARI MERDEKA!.

p.s : no offence on whatever that ive said above in any manner that may hurt you.

Have a nice day.

Holidays..Over

It only felt like a day or two, and holidays are over, and hell once again will begin soon enough. So anyway, holidays was like same ol same ol as always. Sleeping at 3 getting up at 3, dota all day long, studying alil bit here and there, tuition like gila, spending time with my family, going out with friends here and there, jamming, pool, you name it. Anyhow, school is starting tommorow, and I havent finished my homework...just great, but not like I care either cause I know, my class wont bother to do it either.

Anyway Im thinking of getting a new pair of shoes. Either a casual/running/walking shoes. Whichever is fine as long its reliable. I dont know which brand and which one should I buy though I have a few in mind, so if you guys know anything I hope you could recommend me some with a budget around 200. I give up on bball shoes, not like I play it very often too. So I guess my current pair of And1 Battalions will last me for some time.

True Love

Yesterday night, a friend of mine asked me "What does love means to you?". I didnt know what to say, cause I myself truly dont understand and get the meaning of it 100%. Infact im still searching for the true meaning and defination if there is one for it, the deep meaning of it that is, not from the dictionary or anything. Anyhow I suppose I had some thoughts about it so I told her, probably love is when you like that person so much that you will hesitate not to give that person almost everything you can and to put everything on line? Sounds alil extreme but I think so, to a certain extend. Anyhow, opinions needed once again, what do you guys think about the true meaning of love

Apa lu mau? Mau gaduh ka!?

Yesterday morning, I was on my way to tuition, walking past a market and I saw this fishmonger, topless, holiding an umbrella stand, or whatever you call it, you know that metal thingy that holds that huge umbrella, I hope you get what I mean. He was trying to fight a guy, who was also armed with a metal rod, god knows where he got it from but he was wearing a helmet and certainly he was a motorcyclist. The cause of the fight was unknown but all I saw was that fishmonger was like doing "kung-fu" on the road with that umbrella stand plus he stood in the middle of the road and caused a traffic jam.

B-e-a-utiful words was flying to each others face but they didnt really hit each other because another guy was holding back the cyclist for some reason and that fishmonger didnt move a step too. Anyhow later on the police arrived with their "oh-so-almighty Waja" and they were like "Sudah, Sudah, Masuk kereta sekarang" but the fishmonger refused and he said he was not involved but then the police took out the baton and threathen him, so before he got in the car he pointed out who was involved lol..taking down others with him.

Sadly couldnt grab any pictures at that moment, if not I would have posted it.

Holidays

As stated, im already a few days into a one week holiday and having a break from school and living my lazy daily life whenever I have the chance, which is now. Yes I should be studying instead but it seems impossible at the moment with the ammount of distraction, id rather study in school. Anyway, since holidays are meant to be enjoyed as a high school-er, im doing just that, with a lil bit of side work, revision and tuition here and there. Except school of course.

Well, National Day is just around the corner, I see flags placed up everywhere here and there, national anthem's being played in school, shops, almost wherever I go, literally, but question is, what do we do for our country? Some of us may be the same as stated above, placing up the flags and all ya know etc etc, but most of us think it as just a holiday, nothing special, and nothing much to be done concerning patriotic values and stuff like that. Plus this year, animax on Astro is back so to those crazy anime fans, haven for em. Anyhow, Im not too far away from nothing either.

Either way, National Day reminds me of the parade my school took part in last year along with other 55 or so schools from all around K.L. It was on tv live on that day too. Sure brings back memories although we hated it so much at first, and we actually bothered to join it just to skip classes and see what's it like and after all, we're already in form 4 so why not? We might not have the chance next year which, we dont and wont ever have it anymore. So it was basicly a lifetime experience.

We met alot of friends from other schools during the process too, plus meeting new ones and it was almost a reunion, indirectly but it all ended after 31th August 2k5. Well, I wont go in detail about it though, but to those who were in the parade last year, I would wanna know your thoughts and comments about it. The haze is back too. Exactly the same time as last year and its getting pretty bad too. Got a slight headache earlier due to the haze and the heat. The Indonesians just cant stop burning sadly.

Random post.

A while ago I was chatting with my friend about something stupid.

Alil bit racist and dirty comments though.

no offence to anyone in anyway too. Just a random chat xD.


:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
ddd

λсè says:
adsg

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
asdaS?DA
λсè says:
apa lu mau

λсè says:
mau gaduh ka

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
mau bebola

λсè says:
bola apa

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
bebola ayam

λсè says:
pegi tapau kat cina apek la

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
ko la cinapek

λсè says:
aku tak jual bola ayam

λсè says:
i jual bola mahdi

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
waaa

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
special punya ar

λсè says:
ya banyak bagus punya

λсè says:
isi dia rasa UM boleh terbang syurga punya

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
mari cuba

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
sikit

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
hantar kat umah aku

λсè says:
mari tapau sendiri la, i talak delivery service wor

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
tak guna nye cinapek

λсè says:
tak guna atau guna pun i lebih maju dari u

λсè says:
u buat apa? tido kat kaki tangga

λсè says:
tak guna nya natan

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
fuckerrrrrrrrrr

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
too much

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
go till there all

λсè says:
lol

λсè says:
anyway

λсè says:
wad u doing

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
wanking wif guitar

λсè says:
wtf

λсè says:
u fking the strings izzit

λсè says:
pain wor

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
the whole

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
cut string

λсè says:
tak takut ke kena potong ke

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
ke?

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
kena potong ape

λсè says:
kotek ko la

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
dah potong string

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
masuk kuar masuk kuar

λсè says:
hebat nya

λсè says:
berapa inci ni

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
besar

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
diameter ke ape?

λсè says:
full measurement

λсè says:
dari a - z

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
fucker

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
u want suck izit

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
horny guy

λсè says:
i duwan suck

λсè says:
i was thinking how can you cut the guitar string with your puny dick

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
use fucking scissors la

λсè says:
then how u wank with it

λсè says:
rub on it only izzit

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
nola

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
insert the hole la

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
leave 2 string

λсè says:
wah lao

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
just nice

λсè says:
damn big wor

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
fit my dick 1

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
GG

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
λсè says:
how u go out of your house la

λсè says:
one big buldge wan

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
unstim small la

λсè says:
no syok wor like that. girl see oso haiya lousy wan.

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
when see girl i make it stim la

λсè says:
oooo

λсè says:
geng

λсè says:
so how many girls u woo adi

λсè says:
with your size sure easy wan ma right

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
all not up 2 my standard

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
so nvr woo la

λсè says:
what la. so picky for wad

λсè says:
take one good looking wan bang oni la

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
fuckerrrrrr

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
thier boob size all

λсè says:
aiyo u dun like izzit? what size u wan?

λсè says:
asians normal average B ma. What can you ask for more?

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
C

λсè says:
very rare wor

λсè says:
sometimes C oso face no good wan

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
nice to squeeze

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
ok edi lor

λсè says:
not enough la

λсè says:
must have nice body, boobs, looks, and all ma. then oni syok to DO it.

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
yala

:+:~Po the ~ :+: ._. says:
true

and that was about it our cock talking session xD.

Friends or...

Ive been hearing lots of news and rumours going around lately. Even from before ive been hearing the same topics over and over again, but what really caught my mind today was a subject on relationship. The subject was would you rather choose a friend over your partner/bf/gf or vice versa. Its pretty common and even I, myself even experience this before and done it before too, but since I no longer in a relationship, I dont do it anymore and plus, even if I get into one, I think that ill still choose friends over my gf.

Of course by choosing so doesnt mean you totally ignore them till the extreme, like leaving them to rot and make it as though your not into the relationship at all, it doesnt go that way. By saying choosing friends over your partner, I suppose to me it means by spending time with both parties, regardless of the situation, except unavoidable ones and spend equal time on both. Surely most would rather 60 on their partners and 40 on friends. That is normal, and I think that is the most suitable choice, or even a better 50/50.

So what does it mean by choosing your partner over your friends, I think it would be totally ignoring your friends and get totally indulged into your partner and you rarely spend time with your friends anymore. Basicly a 90/10. To me, this kind of things are kinda normal, im quite neutral with it, or probably because it happens to frequently till it made me used to it. So anyway, another opinion post. What do you people think of this?

I dont think its not totally wrong and I dont think its exactly right too, but one thing for sure is, dont ignore any of them. Spend equal time or if you cant, try 60 40 or if you stil cant 70 30 till the end. If not, I think it will create sorta like conflict. That's my opinion anyway. To some people it might differ but anyhow, I wanna see what you guys think about this because it happens so often and im sure youre all well aware of this plus the pros and cons about it.

A friend of mine once said to me "lovers come and go but friends stay". I partially agree with that saying but have a few doubts. What say you?

Suicide?

Starting off, If you feel like going to hell right now, wanna jump of the cliff, wanna electrocute yourself, please my advise to you, dont read this. Even if you choose to do so, that's entirely up to you.

All names has been altered and classified to the user only.


So, anyway, to most people this might be alil common, but still it has been going on and on for years without a decrease in such incidents. The incidents Im referring to would be suicide cases of teenagers and threats to take away their own lives for some reason or objective. The reason why im bringing up this topic even though its been discussed so commonly, I think it is, is because there's quite a number of this happening among my friends, and I totally disagree with what's going on.

Here's one case.
A certain friend of mine, mint , who was with a guy, En for a few months. That guy didnt even respect her for who she was, treating her like a tool plus he's a person who only cares about games, games and more games. He even forced her to play for him, not bothering about how she's feeling at all. So happen then they fought, and then they got back together because mint gave him a chance to re-build the relationship they had before they just got together and to stop all his nonsense.

Anyhow, once again the same thing was going on and on. This continued until he was given 4 chances and that was it. Mint got fed-up and called for the break. Even so, the guy didnt even bother about it. He even said "break, break lor, I got so many other gf's" so, she was like wtf? and off she went. A few weeks later, she got together with someone esle. Now back to that fcukhead En, after she got together with her new bf, he came back crawling and begging mint to get back together and keep saying that he realized that mint was his true love and his everything and wadsoeva shiatcxzczx la.

So basicly it was like this.

Mint : "Why do you wanna get back with me? Ive already given you darn alot of chances to prove yourself worthy."

En : "Because only now I realized that you are the most important person in my life, I cant lose you, you're my everything, so please come back to me"

Mint : "But I cant, Im already with another person"

En : "I dont care, I just want you to breakup with him and get back with me"

Mint : "How can I do that!? Sides im not your property man, you dont own me and I have the rights to choose."

and it continued on and on till it reached a part where he finally gave up, but that wasnt the end, he later then threathen Mint that he will commit suicide if she doesnt wanna get back with him. Simply stupid. I dont get it. Why? why? Why?!?!?. She even told him there's manyyyyyyyy muchhhhhh moreeeeeeee tonnessss of girls outside other than her but why her?. I dont understand, why do people go till that extend nowadays.

There are many other cases other than stated above. That was just one, but most of the others concern relationship and feelings too. Some concerning studies and how to keep up in life. So if anyone could awnser this please do comment. I wont tolerate flames though, I just want opinions.

I dont see any meaning to suicide. Nor benefits from it. Its just running away from your bloody problems and not solving them. Simply a stupid act. I dont think even after we're dead it would solve anything much, in fact creates even more trouble and hassle for alot more people.

Here we go again

Well, holidays is around the corner. 1 week break from school and then comes trials on Sept 11th. Grad Day would be on 9th so far Ive heard and it falls on a Saturday, followed by a day of rest, Sunday and hell begins on Monday. Well, nothing much to be worried about anyway. So, another week of hell has just begun. Starting off with my +maths teacher getting really annoyed and pissed at us. Simply because a teacher complained about our class for being lazy. I mean wtf? I know the teacher who complained and that was the first and the last time ill ever skip her class but yet, she complained where esle to the others who have skipped a number of times dont get into anything.

Well anyway, back to my +maths teacher, she was frekkin pissed as though she's gonna explode anytime soon into a million fiery hot pieces. Talking about volcanoes and meteor showers. She made us do some questions, asked to explained the awnsers, and even threathen us that if we continue our behaviour we have to stay back in school until 3.30. Even made tickets for that ==. Anyway, She even told the other teachers to pump extra work into us.. ishh. How annoying. Thank goodness holiday is on its way.

However, this is not something new to biatch about. It's quite normal to see her moody once in a while and with that I know where we went wrong lol. Somehow or the other, I can feel her types of aura everytime she enters my class. Owh well, hope she'll be in a better mood tommorow. Even if she is still the same, one period wont hurt that much. I can see that tommorow will once again be a long and boring day. Hopefully there's some lectures for us =D.

Right that's about school. Finally im starting back once again on guitar. Back to basics. Its been years. Gotta go through the finger hurting process again lol, but that wont stop me.

Basicly I have nothing much to say over the past few days. Its been boring and dull, without anything to be blogging about. At least today I have a few, but doubt it would be interesting. So anyway, signing off.

PC Fair August 2006.

As said as above, PC fair is held at KLCC convention centre since Friday till tomoro, Sunday. So basicly tomoro is the last day for all those who are interested. Things are really cheap there. Prices for a number of items are really reasonable and worth buying plus guarenteed quality. As for myself I just packed home a new keyboard and a new optical gaming mouse to replace my soon to die ones for just 50. Basic one of course. I dont think getting a keyboard and a mouse for more than 200 is worth it regardless of its performance. Yes, it is good and reliable far than any other, but I think Ill settle down for above average goods.

What a tiring day. Walking about in the fair, and the worse part is there's no exit until the last hall of the area. Which means I cant even turn back to go out from where I came, so I had to walk all around twice. What a pain in the ass, but I dont really mind, I got what I wanted for a reasonable price and plus without any hassle. Except for the trip home. Lines on the LRT counter was like never ending, and so I finally had to resort to taking a cab home.

Before home, stopped by a mini-mart, got a drink to replenish myself and picked up a few snacks from the bakery and went home to relax. Ahhhhhh.

Back to the fair, I noticed quite a number of things that are kinda cheap. Ill just state what I remember from the fair. Sound Blasters was as cheap as 89 bucks. 2.1 Creative. The model, normal basic one le, lazy to type out everything xD. Far more advance one with 3, 4, 5 speakers cost around 200 - 900 and I also saw one which is almost 2k which has a whole surround system. Right left bottom up side, wherever la. Darn nice.

Sonic Gear was about the same just a lil higher. around 120 but they give away free headsets for that. The model was evo 5 I think. Altec Lansing, not much difference because I didnt really bother lol. Edifier, too expensive so didnt check it out. Wireless routers for 200, Samsung optical mouse (anyzen) for 20 - 50. Keyboard too. Razor mouse for about 190++ If im not wrong. Was in a hurry to get back home while I passed by their outlet. Monitors, LCD screens for 500, 17" and 19" too. Brand was Samsung and LG.

RAM didnt have much difference..About the same price in LY. MP4 and MP3 had a great price discount. Creative, Apple etc etc. All had a major price drop. Even sold a mp4 with a cam for 500. Others, didnt take much note. So if anyone is interested, tomoro is the last day! Go grab whatever you can =D. Enjoy.

Wootzcxzc Thanks to all.

Thanks to all who contributed for my wonderful present! =D Its the best ive ever had. Special thanks to :

Potato, JT, -it-, DI, King, Artzie, Guju, Small gal, My cousin and her lou gong, Ben, Shawn, Shammer, Ong, Ruben, Eugene, JY, Jana, Amir, Shen Ni, Electric guy, Navin a.k.a DOG.


Just kidding on the last name Navin! No hard feelings xD. Thanks everyone.

As for the other side, special thanks to :

KY, SY^2, SM, PY, and MD

Hopeless Freak 2

Part 1 : Hopeless Freak

Just recently I wished that ill never see that freak again, but it did happen. I saw him again today in front of my school gate. Most probably he came to see Y once again not to mention, to disturb my friends too =.=. Besides that he was wearing out school uniform so I was like wadafark? He was even carrying the same ancient dunno-how-many year old bag along with him which he used since probably kindergarden.

He is crazy I tell ya C-R-A-Z-Y. Why the hell would he wanna come back to school, wearing our uniform, carrying the same old bag and walking around like an idiot trying to act he was once a senior in the school. Just plain stupidity weiii. I was uncertain about his motives but I can be sure that he is looking for someone and it should be most probably to see Y again, or her friends, or his "friends" but since the last one is partially impossible, I assume he should be finding for Y, but good thing is, she's absent today lol.

With that same old face he walked around my school compound talking to some other people, disturbing a number of my friends and even followed and stalked my classmate walking with her boyfriend =.=. Sad man sadddddddd I cant believe there is actually someone like him still living. Not being a sadist or anything but seriously cant he just give up..ugh. Besides that he even blogged about saying that he will forget Y and move on and so on. Even said that, he hopes that they will suffer and all those shit, but he is still doing all the same shiatz he used to do.

Perfect bullshitter, knowing that he is in form 6, he even tells a number of people in his current school that he misses her alot and all those stuff. Aihhhhhhh. Good thing was he didnt notice my group, so he didnt manage to get a hold of us before he went home lol. I was wishing he didnt, thank goodness.

Happy Birthday....to me.

Emo post, dont bother reading if you dont feel like it.



To most people, I suppose birthdays has been hell lotsa fun. Throwing parties, receiving presents, hanging out with friends, etc etc. Somehow I dont get to feel the same, well yea I do get to do a number of things as stated above and I am personally happy about it but there's something inside of me that's stopping me and it totally spoils my mood for the whole day, which is today, my birthday.

I didnt get much sleep earlier last night. Crashed at 4 and woke up at 6. Another two hour of sleep to keep up with 10 times its duration. I tried my best to not let this bother me and it hardly did. Yet, I still felt moody without any sense of what is hitting on me. I felt like there's no life in me.
School was like normal, nothing really..interesting other than the receiving wishes from my friends.

I hate this, I seriously do. The past has repeated itself. I had this same old feeling last year too. Its just plain sad. The thing is, this year my life had a drastic change and I was totally a different person than whom I was last year. Emotion wise that is. It was my depression year last year, and somehow its hitting me back from the far ends of earth where I left it.

Once again, my birthday comes and goes like the wind. No biggy. Im sure many others would have shared the same experience too but well, I cant be too sure. One surprising thing was my EX wished me. Which she didnt last year when I was hoping she would. It was kinda important to me but now it doesnt really matter anymore but she did wish, so ill just take it with an open heart and of course I really do wanna fix our friendship but sadly, I wont turn down niether would she therefore the war will never end.

To all my friends who actually made the effort, I love you guys and girls and thanks for all the effort and the trouble of doing such. To those others, I thank you too for making me feel happier and for not making me feel lonely like I did last year and I am really really grateful for that.
Despite my moody and emotional feelings today, I think ill be able to sum up to it after having a great dinner with my family. Though the feeling still lingers around, I cant help it. Ill leave it the way it is and probably hope for a better tommorow. Which I really do.

Almost forgot, Happy Bday to Tsa who shares the same bday date as me, and also to Amir (6th) and Stephanie (5th).

Sunday..once again..

As usual. The 1st day of the week is here once again and it seems to be the most lazy day for me. I suppose its normal for other people too. I used to have hell-lot of classes on Sundays but now it goes down to one only, yet im still frekkin lazy to go. I used to have Sunday classes 10 - 1, tuition 2 - 430 and finally Sunday Mass at 530 - 7. That basicly takes out my whole freakkin day and I only have a few more hours to spend.

Anyway, ill be skipping tuition once again knowing I have my own backup tuition so I dont have to worry at all. Sides the teacher is only repeating a familiar topic which my other tuition is doing the same so I think its not really important, and so im down to one activity today which is Sunday Mass, which I dont really mind because it has been going on for several years.

My sleeping hours will change during weekends, ill usually sleep at 3 - 4 and wake up around 1 or 2. That is one of the reasons why I got lazy, after 5 days of torment, I have to go for another extra =.= . Its darn irritating man...plus the next day..Monday..the weekly routine of hell begins once again. I dont see any point of going to school anymore. Teachers wont enter, no studies will be done, irrelevant things will come in place etc etc. Some of the teachers actually do enter class but what they teach is 100% nonsense.

Still, I have to go to school for the sake of attendance and if not, my certificate will go down the drain. Usually its not like this, but since the freakkin school gave a damn stupid reason of "insufficient certificates" we all have to drag our dead bodies to school and waste up to plus minus 7 hours of precious time. The same reason goes to my other certificates, like taking part in clubs and sports. Each certificate has a rank and they were "short" of the highest one so their giving out the second one when we are suppose to receive the first rank certificate.

This is simply plain stupidity. They dont want to give us what we deserve and yet giving out to those who dont deserve it. Seriously, I hate the management of my school. Speaking of management, my new principal is hell-annoying too. She expects us to be like her former school but she doesnt even know the basics and normal practices of my school so wtf?
In example she wants everybody to get their ass down for assembly and be ready at 715 on Mondays where we usually only start to come down at 730.

Not only the principal gets my hatred, many other teachers too. Including our Co-Curricular* Asst and the other "melayu wannabe" teacher who takes charge of our physical ed. They make us do reckless things. They treat us like some 50 year old group of people and make us do stupid things. In example, they made us do some aerobic dance with a group of ladies within the age range of 40 to 50. Its not that I dont mind doing it but they dont freakkin join in? WTF were not your slaves la.

Besides that, they made a few of my friends CLEAN THE FRONT GATE of my school. Stupid isnt it? Many others, were told to wash the school guards car / teachers car. Ahhhh what a great school I have, but owh well, 3 more months to go and im gonna be 18 soon enough. I suppose I can finally leave and say goodbye to all this things. Wonder if ill ever miss it, who knoes.

Hopeless Freak

About a month or two ago, one of my good friend, Z got together with Y. The relationship was near-perfect and everything was going so well and I was personally happy for them, im sure everyone was. Recently, some certain person,lets name him J, couldnt accept the fact that they got together got furious and started taking actions. Reckless ones I must say.

A while ago I checked his blog since he left his add on some familiar site I usually visit when I have nothing to do so, I saw him blogging about this thing. Let me list down a number of things he did to separate Z & Y

- Sending letters to Y's parents.
- Sms-ing a number of people and teachers about them.
- Spreading rumours.
- Even tried to stop them using an unknown identity.

There were a few more, but sadly I cant remember. It was quite sometime ago and I even can barely remember what had happened until I read his blog lol. Back then I was in Penang and I had my source of information. I personally think that this guy is a some-sort of lifeless FREAK. I mean wtf? Cant he move on or something. She's not the only girl in the world plus he has been harrasing other of her friends and even has their personal numbers which only a few people knows about it.

I hate to say this but seriously, he is 100% qualified for to be a professional stalker. Sigh. Well then, of course every problem has its solution, so my friend Z and along with a few more friends went and find J. Went to his house and call his house phone or so ive heard, but he didnt dare to come out at all. Damn coward, he was talking and flaming them like some big-"taiko" behind the box and when it comes face to face he just chicken out and runs away.

I feel sad for him. Really I do, and I really hope he doesnt touch any of my friends anymore after that incident. Hope it really did teach him a lesson. I certainly hope I dont see him again too. Freakkin irritating. Although he never really bothered about me before, but I certainly hate him till the ends of hell because of creating such a mess and trouble for my pals.

Revival

As the days goes by and everything passes by me without a stop into it, I think im really wasting my time and not just any ordinary time yet precious and irreversable moments.

So as said above, I think I should continue blogging as a past time. Sides, I believe I have too much free time to do so. Despite the fact that SPM is coming near, I doubt it will seriously affect the my time spent online and using the pc lol. Maybe abit but still.

So basicly this is the revival of my past blog. The xanga one which is now officially dead. Xanga is rather hard to handle for me. Probably that was what that made me lazy. Stupid thing. Anyway, I hope this one wont end up being the same and Ill try my best to keep up with it. You have my word Pam =p.

Well, I suppose that'll do for an introduction. Now starting off I just had a great lunch with a number of friends yesterday. Seems like my bday is on the way too so they decided to kinda throw some-sort like a party for me. Thx to all present and to all who contributed in this wonderful event and Im pretty happy about it. =D Shim Yi's pasta was massively feeling. Two bowls of it and I was 80% full. That wasnt the end of my horror though, there was still plenty to eat.

I simple couldnt take it anymore after that, along with Ben, somehow he challenged me to who can eat the most, but in the end, it ended with a tie. As a finale the cake was superb. Thx once again to whoever who bought it lol plus it was a surprise to Siew Mei and as usual, flour and cream started flying. Sum Yee had her revenge, and I followed along =D.

So after that "Gila lunch" went back home and had to get ready for tuition. Boring and lenghty as usual. Couldnt wait for the clock to tick 8 and finally it did and I immediately rushed home to get some rest.
Despite the "happy-happy day", my exhaustion just totally spoiled my mood for the rest of the day. Was really really moody and this I apologize to Denise and Po. aka Mahdi.

Finally, day ended with a round of DotA. Finally owned and won a good game after many rounds of leavers plus newbies. Probably just bad luck but owh well.