Past and future.

If youre feeling emo and all, I dont suggest you read this one, otherwise you take the risks! Im not responsible for any damages I caused to youre brains =D

Getting over bad memories or experience are pretty tough and rather annoying. It simply bites you until you are totally brought down by all those downside feelings and then you start to have much more problems in your life. It is a fact that we cant overcome our past so easily, unlike others each of us are different and we have many other ways to bring back our normal self from the grasp of the past. Keep in mind im talking about bad ones only. However, some of us dont have ANY way to overcome it, well not like im gonna mention how to do so, its just that alil opinion of mine. If it was me id let time handle it, while I enjoy myself over the duration and forget about it, pretty simple for me to overcome things.

It depends on your personality too ( as well as mine) and that is the core to take over the past and look straight ahead to the future. In other words, kicking off what is bad, and accept what is good. Without a good and positive personality, were sure to go down. Imagine your one of your important person meets and accident or something, surely you will feel down, no doubt. I would too. Its not like I would be saying "hahahaha die fcuktard dieeee get out of here". No, though it make it seems like you hate him/her and all its pretty evil to do so, but on the other hand, it can be considered a way to overcome it too, as in you develop hatred towards that person. Anyhow since I said it was an important person, surely you cant hate em right, its just plain out of humanity, if you do so, youre suit for the title "sadist".

So what im trying to say is, personality plays a big role here, then comes support, from your family, friends, gf/bf or even your dogs, cats, birds whatever you choose. Some might disagree with the term, "be positive". A number of people whom ive talked too, would mostly say, "you dont understand what is going through in my life". Sure we wont understand..but to those who have that in mind, please think of those who are up to listen to you, he/she might have already experienced things that are way beyond major than your own problem.

Okay, so what about the one who likes to say, "How can I be positive?" Mostly referring to the problems their having and all those stuff like that. I understand that each of us has a hard time facing through challenges in life. Its not like im saying that every problem can be solved in just a day, but for those who have been hugging on to their problems day after day without a single effort being done to change their life, surely you are killing yourself. If you say how can I be positive? Id say how the fcuk you wanna be positive when you are siding with the negative side. Those who cling on to problems, fcuk you, move on.

So what's next? Those who cant overcome their problems even after a long period of time. This is a hard one, this mainly occurs because one does not know how to solve their problems, or dont have enough support to move on. I may be wrong, but through experience, this is what I see. I took two years to overcome one of mine. Pretty short, if compared to others, or maybe long, I dont know, but still, its all in the mind whether do you wanna make a change or not, or even maybe someone would make a change for you, that was my case. Someone did come and butt in and changed me into a whole new piece of cake. Though I have no proper solutions, im just telling out what I know and things like that. If it has been biting you for a very long time, so what? enjoy life and dont worry about the problems you have in the past. I mean if it has been biting you for the past dont know how many years, what makes you think that you can solve it this year, or next year or whatsoever year. Just leave it, it will be tamed on its own, even if you dont do much, but DO NOT cling onto it.

Some might even have recovered from their past, but still refuses to forget what had happen. Well it is hard to forget bad things or good things in the past, but still, dont farking get happy one day, and suddenly you look back on another day and feel oh my gawd im such a bodo, and start feeling depressed and so on and so forth. It is normal to have breakdowns, but dont do it often, it kills. Those who have breakdowns all the time, you should just eat 14 panadols like my good friend and if you survive, your time has not been decided yet. There are those who are even moody all the time and blames it on people because of their problems. We are not at fault, you are. Dont blame those who are trying to help you, otherwise, you can do it on ur ownself if you are that such of a strong person who doesnt require any support.

Futhermore, there are those who does not accept the fact, good or bad, they still try to keep up what they have been doing without realizing the fact that has been told, proven, hinted and so on to them. In example, youre after someone you have a crush on, and he/she says a big NO to youre face and yet you still keep up chasing him/her. Is there a point in that? Okay you might say, maybe you still have a chance, if so, I dont mind, but what if you dont? 0.00000% you will fail, still wanna chase?

I might have forgotten some cases, or other cases which I have not experienced, but so far this is my opinion. I do welcome proper feedbacks, not flames, I do welcome opinions and comments too. Anyhow there is also one last thing I would like to point out.

To one of my friends, if you know who you are, stop chasing, its not worth it, and also, please choose youre future correctly and reconsider the pros and cons on the things in life you want to deploy yourself to.

To another, please control youre temper and youre attitude, and the way you treat others plus minus the insults and filthy comments.

To others, I hope this might have helped you, even if it is abit or nothing at all, If so I am sorry, or if I might have offended you, please keep in mind, this post is just my opinion and I do not wish to offend anyone in anyway.

Lack of inspiration

I tried a number of times to update, but still, the net shoots me down everytime I do so. Grrr..Well its because of the ND the net is still quite slow but anyway, it should be fixed soon, after all there is a SLIGHT bit of improvement in speed, if you notice it.

A number of birthdays are around the corner, therefore to those who are turning 18 soon enough =P youre getting old. Likewise, my turn comes in another 8 months. In addition, Happy Birthday to KY, which falls today. As for presents...expect them late. I mean, really late lol.

Like the title for today says, I do lack inspiration to blog, why? Because my life is so bloody NOT interesting that I dont have anything to share. I have alot of time..Lots of time before I start college..I have alot of things in mind that I can do too, but for now im already "hired" by my parents to keep the household together. Well, for a certain ammount of wages/day. I dont mind it at all, easy job, good pay, can even stay at home and sleep/play all day long. Just that going out might be alil bit hard due to curfews.

Anyhow, will post again once the line is much faster and I have more things to share rather than this yusless post.

Just an ordinary day with another way.

Well, edu fair was held and is still being held at KLCC since yesterday and it ends today. It starts at 11 am and it ends at 7 pm and honestly, if you wish to enquire and go to every single booth there is in the fair, you will spend more time than the lenght of the fair itself, seriously.

Anyway, I got pass through it by visiting a few, and got information I wanted. Parking was hell though, with Isaac's "anytime dying" car. Well more or less has a problem staying alive when going uphill. KLCC wasnt much of a problem, but when we went to SGW for lunch..it was really crazy. Plus, we had to go down until B5 parking..or was it B6 == whichever parking was crazy because to get out, we had to pass through probably about a 45 degree hill each time.

Traffic was another factor too. Drivers here..seriously cant and shouldnt drive a car at all. ==. But it wasnt as bad as parking =P we managed to get back to Bangsar in 30 mins ++, even though we lost our way. Back in Bangsar it was already about 4.30pm +. Went home at about 5.30pm+ after having nothing to do.

Reached home anddddddd



the only thing I had in mind was..



going to SLEEP

ZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzZzzzzzzzzzzzzZzzz

Well, after all I went to edufair without any sleep..soo =P

I deserve that 16 hour long sleep which is why im wide awake now. =D

Good Day.

Im back..for the moment.

Well, first of all the reason I havent been bloggin for quite some time is............



um..



I FORGOT my password.

........Stupid eh?

But well that's the truth. I really did forget my password and back then I was too lazy to retrieve it. I think im keeping too many passwords and usernames, till I forget which one do I use for anything that requires a pass. It may be late but still, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year~ I have a Christmas filled with fun and Bo0ze and a New Year filled with boredom and...boredom.

Speaking of a new year, any resolutions? Well honestly, I dont know, do I need resolutions in the first place? xD. Maybe I do, but what do I do? Gimme a suggestion? =P

I havent had any thoughts about it either, I mean so what if its a new year, you still carry the problems you left behind the previous year, dont think that makes a very big difference. Unless you strife to handle it THIS year...well some might be able to do so, but nope, I dont think I can do it myself. I dont stick to my resolutions. Never do, even year after year ive been doing it, I never follow to what I say, I just do....what I like to do, get it? Something like, just follow your mind, heart, eyes, hands, legs, whatever.

Anyhow, for those who can do it, keep it up, its good in a sense..well..in a sense.
Im sure you know what I mean if you can keep it up this far. Then looking back a lil futher, Christmas? was probably a really good christmas after a few years. Well excluding the presents..you wont wanna know what I got..and Im too lazy to tell it to you either..so..Dont BOTHER asking. =P. But still, booze roxx.

Anyway, my cousins went back to Aussie soon after christmas and the house is pretty quiet now, like the way it used to be, and plus my bro even took back the ps2 back to his apartment in Penang...therefore..im boredddddddd...with pretty much nothing to do, cept going out, dota-ing till early hours of the day, sleeping in the afternoon till night, eating at wrong hours, watching anime whole day, sigh..very unhealthy I know, but I cant help it!.

Owh well, lets see what's up ahead for me and for all of you this new year.