Something I feel

Eh, I feel like im damn old edi wei. Having neck aches and back aches alot. Feels like im gonna break down anytime soon.

A day out.

Today was sports day for my former high skool. Slept at 12 got up at 5, went for breakfast at 7 and the bloody mamak forgot my order, thus having to cancel it and starve till afternoon. Basket. Anyhow, Sports Day was..pretty okay I guess, though it doesnt seem to be as lively as last year. Maybe because were all gone and left the others to have the glory, fun and joy. Starting off with the marching. Well I have no comments at all, it was kinda okay in a way, bad in another way, last year's band was clearly better and much much more "louder".

Anyhow it ended up Temenggung (green) and Syahbandar (red) taking 2nd, while Bendahara (yellow) and Laksamana (blue) takes 1st and 4th respectively.
Followed up by running events, was pretty clear Temenggung swept all. Cept for a few therefore the champion was already known halfway through the day even before the final results. Well gud for em. Their hardwork paid off.

Later on I had a gud long chat with my old friend KY who joined in for the day at about noon. Its been quite sometime since I last talked to her face to face. Followed her to town to shop for anime. I feel kinda awkward there. I felt that I have watched too much anime till I know ive watched at least 50% of the anime that was on the rack. Well, cant help it! =D. Brings back so much memories, in town, in school, the roads too lol. Its been almost 5 months since the last time ive been to those places.

I had a weird dream today, while I was sleeping after I got back. A real weird dream. Pretty sudden.

Anyway, it was a gud day going out once in a while to refresh abit.

Course? Wad course?

I attended the driving maintanence course today. It was pretty fine..until the practical part. Im pretty stressed up and tired and pissed, I cant control edi today.


I sometimes get the strong urge to just curse and swear at people especially my intructors and ppl elder than me, those fucked up ones of course. I have all my respect for them, but once they fucking disrespect us, I have nothing esle to say other than DIU LEI. It was really a bad idea to go for the lecture with 3 hours of sleep, knowing that I cant control my temper when im tired. Never thought it would turn out to be so bad.

First of all was to inspect the hood of the car...open it up, check this check that, touch this touch that, and wow were done. I dont mind that, but the thing is my fucking instructor just tells us the order of the process and runs away to the other car with a group of girls and start teaching them, wtf you horny old man? You teach them personally but you ignore the others? Fark wei, even when we finished doing it he still took his own sweet time teaching, knowing we were already finished with the inspection and could even drive his car home.

Next comes to the driving, He doesnt tell us ANYTHING about the car, no shit, not even how to use or handle the car properly and expects us to drive like a PRO. Seriously, we pay those fucktards to teach us and not to learn by ourselves and screw up. There is a reason man. The first thing we step in the car, surely there are first time drivers right? But instead when I stepped in the car, he went like, okay tekan "clutch, tukar gear, signal, release handbreak, and go". I was like wtf? Hello first timer here, I even said shouldnt I know how to use the car properly 1st? Or even at least a short briefing would have been so much help compared to nothing. He replied "nonono you just drive". DIU LEI. I just let go of the clutch and tekan accelerate and car mati wo0t. Then I kena scolding. This was still in the 2nd stage of my temper, still can control.

Finally was my group finished at 2.40. But he made us wait for almost a fucking hour till he let us check out. Before that he went to the canteen and cari makan, minum, smoke, flirt, have sex, taking his own sweet time. UGHHH. Was waiting like fools oni. In the end 3.30 oni can lari, thank god wei, I was really relieved, but I still hate the fact I got a fucked up old man useless instructor. I mean even he is a temporary instructor and not the real one, he should fucking do his job, that's wad he is being paid for to do rite. farkkkkkkkkkkkk laaaaa.

Haihzz. Thank god its over.

Im affected

Listening to emo songs highly disrupts my mind and emotion. ><

Im feeling pretty down and sober for nothing, by just listening to emo songs!

Man, I feel like sheding tears.

Orange rox

Mandarin oranges are like the new snack you need to have daily to keep on working. For me that is!

Ive been taking down at least 2 a day for the past week, but the bad news is.. There's only about 10+ left. No00o0oooo

Ah well, guess Ill wait another year.

Switch

Due to some "problems" this blog has been switched to be a private blog and for close friends only. In fact I never wanted it to be much of a publicity anyway =D

A reminder

I know when you like/have a crush on someone, you chase for em, trying to get em and do wadeva u can to get em if that is ur motive. Some might not, but to those who do yea, there's no harm about it.

Even after being rejected and all sorts, a few will try again, majority wont bother and give up.

That isnt a problem either, just that..





DONT TURN GAY/LES IN THE PROCESS OMG!

Suggestions? Anybody?

Rawr, I just stole back my ps2 from my brother =D, but the thing is all the games he left it in Penang. == So any recommendations anyone? New games, old games, ancient games, wadeva that's gud.

Besides I need a new MMOrpg game to play too, just to kill some time. Need to grab my driving license soon too, aihs pretty lazy to do it ><.

O yes, if you havent read today's newspaper, there was an article about an extremist who shot dead a female provincial minister because she was "indecently dressed"

Dont we just love extremists? wo0tz

Were all going crazy.

You make me craaaaaazzzzyyyy, or was it you drive me crazyyyyy, or was it im going craaazyyy? Omfg I forgot the lyrics edi. Anyhow, was just a song we tried making and composing. Simply whack some average tunes and beats and there we have it, our own no0b song ><.

Anyway for the 1st time I jammed twice in a day. With extra time charges + broken strings + free 15 mins discount w0ot. In between there was lunch and dinner, 1 hour dota in a crappy cc with no speakers and freaking lousy hard keyboard, only the monitor was gud, but still sucks anyway, charges was 2.50 and the aircond was blowing HOT air. Thank God it was for only an hour

I wanna take a gud rest tonite wei, im getting headaches quite frequent for the past few days, I feel so heavy, tired and extremely sleepy when I wake up in the morning even after appropiate hours of sleep. Blisters are here once again, happens everytime after every jamming session, and yea I managed to pull off plug in baby 80% successfully compared to 40% on my acoustic guitar. So gud =D.

Im hungry, its time to look for food.

Early hours in the morning.

Lets see, a mild cup of coffee will keep me awake for one or two hours, a medium one will keep me for three to five hours, but today specially, im having a strong brew and I think Ill stay awake till night if I dont drop on my bed. Its been a while since I last had a cup of coffee, since school days ended I just simply didnt need it anymore, so I guess ill make an exception today. In fact, I love to stay up the whole morning, well early hours in the morning. Im supposed to be asleep now, not until my mom bugged me to make breakfast.

Looks like its same old baked beans, eggs and probably some tuna. Well, see what's available. Im kinda hungry too anyway. Cant help it, I need to eat! Going to bed on an empty stomach is, pretty hard for me. One moment Ill be trying to sleep and another my stomach will start singing. Ah well, gotta do my job.

I am a J addict.

Ive been trying to sort out my song list on my itunes lately, but the problem is there are just too many songs with different genres, not listed artists, funny words artist, and I can say that, 1/2 of my songs are Jap, or rather make it 3/4, im not too sure either.

Check out the first few songs, how am I suppose to type that shit out!? If youre asking me to rename it, man I have darn alot of those, its not an easy job ya know.

Lets see, rock, general rock, hard rock, wad wad rock laaa, then comes alternative, punk, blues, j-visual rock ( I dont even know what's this), and etc etc. Owh god I dont even know what's in my player.

But you see, im not asking for help on sorting out, as Im slowly doing it, but it bloody consumes damn alot of precious time. If youve been keeping up with me, im not doing anything anyway, but still, there goes my precious nap hours =(. Anyway back on topic, out of 800+ songs I have in my list, I can say about 500 of em are Jap. Im a real freak! no0o0. In other cases, I craze anime too. I even made a list out of what I have watched so far.

I started back in form 4 I think, and so far ive watched more than 80 different series and titles of anime. In other words I have watched on average about 1.5k episodes and each episode is about 20 minutes and spent approx 516 hours alone in my life watching anime. Wad a useless fact. I might be not be an "otaku" as the others, but I still think ive spend too much time on anime and J songs =p.

Want my full list of anime? lol.

Some other people might have spent much more time than me, im sure of that, but im about to turn into them what they are now in the future. I wonder if the Japanese themselves are addicts.

Lazy Lazy

Ive been very lazy for the past week or weeks, I dont even remember when was the last time I updated, without referring to my last post of course. Anyway things arent pretty interesting anyway.

Example, I passed my Undang test? Lol? I took it during October last year, the lecture that is, and I finally decided to take the test a week or two ago. Was pretty easy anyway, probably the main reason why we have so many bad drivers on the road today. Accidents happen kinda often, maybe too often. I might be the next! ..


Well okay maybe not, I dont wish to get involved in any for now, never if possible.

So moving on, I am still bumming around. Waiting for April, and my results too. What I do is, sleeping at 6/7/8 am, getting up at 4/5/6 pm and dota and eat sleep wadeva etc etc. That concludes my daily life. =). I nid to do something more productive man, or esle, Id probably gain 50 kgs and kill myself at the end of this year. Good news is, even though I have been on this routine for a month, im still the same! Cept that my head feels pretty heavy everyday, and having headaches.

I nid to get a job. A real job, but I wonder when will I get free from my current job =/. Till then.

Past and future.

If youre feeling emo and all, I dont suggest you read this one, otherwise you take the risks! Im not responsible for any damages I caused to youre brains =D

Getting over bad memories or experience are pretty tough and rather annoying. It simply bites you until you are totally brought down by all those downside feelings and then you start to have much more problems in your life. It is a fact that we cant overcome our past so easily, unlike others each of us are different and we have many other ways to bring back our normal self from the grasp of the past. Keep in mind im talking about bad ones only. However, some of us dont have ANY way to overcome it, well not like im gonna mention how to do so, its just that alil opinion of mine. If it was me id let time handle it, while I enjoy myself over the duration and forget about it, pretty simple for me to overcome things.

It depends on your personality too ( as well as mine) and that is the core to take over the past and look straight ahead to the future. In other words, kicking off what is bad, and accept what is good. Without a good and positive personality, were sure to go down. Imagine your one of your important person meets and accident or something, surely you will feel down, no doubt. I would too. Its not like I would be saying "hahahaha die fcuktard dieeee get out of here". No, though it make it seems like you hate him/her and all its pretty evil to do so, but on the other hand, it can be considered a way to overcome it too, as in you develop hatred towards that person. Anyhow since I said it was an important person, surely you cant hate em right, its just plain out of humanity, if you do so, youre suit for the title "sadist".

So what im trying to say is, personality plays a big role here, then comes support, from your family, friends, gf/bf or even your dogs, cats, birds whatever you choose. Some might disagree with the term, "be positive". A number of people whom ive talked too, would mostly say, "you dont understand what is going through in my life". Sure we wont understand..but to those who have that in mind, please think of those who are up to listen to you, he/she might have already experienced things that are way beyond major than your own problem.

Okay, so what about the one who likes to say, "How can I be positive?" Mostly referring to the problems their having and all those stuff like that. I understand that each of us has a hard time facing through challenges in life. Its not like im saying that every problem can be solved in just a day, but for those who have been hugging on to their problems day after day without a single effort being done to change their life, surely you are killing yourself. If you say how can I be positive? Id say how the fcuk you wanna be positive when you are siding with the negative side. Those who cling on to problems, fcuk you, move on.

So what's next? Those who cant overcome their problems even after a long period of time. This is a hard one, this mainly occurs because one does not know how to solve their problems, or dont have enough support to move on. I may be wrong, but through experience, this is what I see. I took two years to overcome one of mine. Pretty short, if compared to others, or maybe long, I dont know, but still, its all in the mind whether do you wanna make a change or not, or even maybe someone would make a change for you, that was my case. Someone did come and butt in and changed me into a whole new piece of cake. Though I have no proper solutions, im just telling out what I know and things like that. If it has been biting you for a very long time, so what? enjoy life and dont worry about the problems you have in the past. I mean if it has been biting you for the past dont know how many years, what makes you think that you can solve it this year, or next year or whatsoever year. Just leave it, it will be tamed on its own, even if you dont do much, but DO NOT cling onto it.

Some might even have recovered from their past, but still refuses to forget what had happen. Well it is hard to forget bad things or good things in the past, but still, dont farking get happy one day, and suddenly you look back on another day and feel oh my gawd im such a bodo, and start feeling depressed and so on and so forth. It is normal to have breakdowns, but dont do it often, it kills. Those who have breakdowns all the time, you should just eat 14 panadols like my good friend and if you survive, your time has not been decided yet. There are those who are even moody all the time and blames it on people because of their problems. We are not at fault, you are. Dont blame those who are trying to help you, otherwise, you can do it on ur ownself if you are that such of a strong person who doesnt require any support.

Futhermore, there are those who does not accept the fact, good or bad, they still try to keep up what they have been doing without realizing the fact that has been told, proven, hinted and so on to them. In example, youre after someone you have a crush on, and he/she says a big NO to youre face and yet you still keep up chasing him/her. Is there a point in that? Okay you might say, maybe you still have a chance, if so, I dont mind, but what if you dont? 0.00000% you will fail, still wanna chase?

I might have forgotten some cases, or other cases which I have not experienced, but so far this is my opinion. I do welcome proper feedbacks, not flames, I do welcome opinions and comments too. Anyhow there is also one last thing I would like to point out.

To one of my friends, if you know who you are, stop chasing, its not worth it, and also, please choose youre future correctly and reconsider the pros and cons on the things in life you want to deploy yourself to.

To another, please control youre temper and youre attitude, and the way you treat others plus minus the insults and filthy comments.

To others, I hope this might have helped you, even if it is abit or nothing at all, If so I am sorry, or if I might have offended you, please keep in mind, this post is just my opinion and I do not wish to offend anyone in anyway.

Lack of inspiration

I tried a number of times to update, but still, the net shoots me down everytime I do so. Grrr..Well its because of the ND the net is still quite slow but anyway, it should be fixed soon, after all there is a SLIGHT bit of improvement in speed, if you notice it.

A number of birthdays are around the corner, therefore to those who are turning 18 soon enough =P youre getting old. Likewise, my turn comes in another 8 months. In addition, Happy Birthday to KY, which falls today. As for presents...expect them late. I mean, really late lol.

Like the title for today says, I do lack inspiration to blog, why? Because my life is so bloody NOT interesting that I dont have anything to share. I have alot of time..Lots of time before I start college..I have alot of things in mind that I can do too, but for now im already "hired" by my parents to keep the household together. Well, for a certain ammount of wages/day. I dont mind it at all, easy job, good pay, can even stay at home and sleep/play all day long. Just that going out might be alil bit hard due to curfews.

Anyhow, will post again once the line is much faster and I have more things to share rather than this yusless post.

Just an ordinary day with another way.

Well, edu fair was held and is still being held at KLCC since yesterday and it ends today. It starts at 11 am and it ends at 7 pm and honestly, if you wish to enquire and go to every single booth there is in the fair, you will spend more time than the lenght of the fair itself, seriously.

Anyway, I got pass through it by visiting a few, and got information I wanted. Parking was hell though, with Isaac's "anytime dying" car. Well more or less has a problem staying alive when going uphill. KLCC wasnt much of a problem, but when we went to SGW for lunch..it was really crazy. Plus, we had to go down until B5 parking..or was it B6 == whichever parking was crazy because to get out, we had to pass through probably about a 45 degree hill each time.

Traffic was another factor too. Drivers here..seriously cant and shouldnt drive a car at all. ==. But it wasnt as bad as parking =P we managed to get back to Bangsar in 30 mins ++, even though we lost our way. Back in Bangsar it was already about 4.30pm +. Went home at about 5.30pm+ after having nothing to do.

Reached home anddddddd



the only thing I had in mind was..



going to SLEEP

ZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzZzzzzzzzzzzzzZzzz

Well, after all I went to edufair without any sleep..soo =P

I deserve that 16 hour long sleep which is why im wide awake now. =D

Good Day.

Im back..for the moment.

Well, first of all the reason I havent been bloggin for quite some time is............



um..



I FORGOT my password.

........Stupid eh?

But well that's the truth. I really did forget my password and back then I was too lazy to retrieve it. I think im keeping too many passwords and usernames, till I forget which one do I use for anything that requires a pass. It may be late but still, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year~ I have a Christmas filled with fun and Bo0ze and a New Year filled with boredom and...boredom.

Speaking of a new year, any resolutions? Well honestly, I dont know, do I need resolutions in the first place? xD. Maybe I do, but what do I do? Gimme a suggestion? =P

I havent had any thoughts about it either, I mean so what if its a new year, you still carry the problems you left behind the previous year, dont think that makes a very big difference. Unless you strife to handle it THIS year...well some might be able to do so, but nope, I dont think I can do it myself. I dont stick to my resolutions. Never do, even year after year ive been doing it, I never follow to what I say, I just do....what I like to do, get it? Something like, just follow your mind, heart, eyes, hands, legs, whatever.

Anyhow, for those who can do it, keep it up, its good in a sense..well..in a sense.
Im sure you know what I mean if you can keep it up this far. Then looking back a lil futher, Christmas? was probably a really good christmas after a few years. Well excluding the presents..you wont wanna know what I got..and Im too lazy to tell it to you either..so..Dont BOTHER asking. =P. But still, booze roxx.

Anyway, my cousins went back to Aussie soon after christmas and the house is pretty quiet now, like the way it used to be, and plus my bro even took back the ps2 back to his apartment in Penang...therefore..im boredddddddd...with pretty much nothing to do, cept going out, dota-ing till early hours of the day, sleeping in the afternoon till night, eating at wrong hours, watching anime whole day, sigh..very unhealthy I know, but I cant help it!.

Owh well, lets see what's up ahead for me and for all of you this new year.

Over and done with.

Well it might be kinda late to say, but anyhow SPM is over =D and im free from books for the moment. Besides that, now im on a holiday and im free to do whatever I want..well as much as I can and plus my limitations. Anyway, nothing much really behind the days that went by..just normal life without examinations or studies to bother about..YET.

I received a mail from co0kie this morning inviting me to her birthday party in SG, I wonder if I can make it, well in advance, im sorry if I cant~

So as the days go by, my course choices has been narrowed down and I mean way down. Im planning to go for a few edu fairs to check out stuff here and there. Anyone wanna follow? =p Anyway, besides that ive tried FF12 and..the battle system sucksssss omg. Its like freaking slow and probably the worse battle system ive ever played compared to the previous series of FF.

Well, so far so good, more holiday plans to come up I suppose. Till then.

wo0tz

The wedding was grand,
The dinner was superb,
The alchohol was heavenly,
The scenery was lovely,
The wheater was hot,
The air was breezy,
The morning winds was freezing,
The food was delicious,
The food was cheap,
The road was winding,
The travel hours were long,
The trouble caused by others was sickening,
The girls are pretty,
The lala bengs and lala muis are also pretty,
The kiasu Penang drivers was fun to play with, they even fight for parking slots.
The hokkien accent has affected me,
My favourite curry puff was sold out,
My Mp4 headphones went crazy,

and many many more other things happened during my two day trip to Penang.

Last but not least, I loved the violin play by Miss Yvonne, who's only 14 years old, and played the violin on "Fur Elise" you know the o2jam one..It was superb..and even her solo performance was spectacular. Damn, such talent at such age. ><.

Owh well, Penang was fun =) Couldnt wish for any better things to occur other than having Bio paper tommorow.

Some useless quotes.

I dont have anything againts her.. but that doesnt mean I cant insult her.

oh wait I do hav something againts her

she's a mofo of a lifetime .

- By some sad guy, complaining about some sad girl.


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+maths rox our sox lets sing it add maths rox our cox

gimme S gimme P gimme M and wad do we get? death!

row row row the boat gently down the stream merrily merrily merrily merrily life is but a dream.

- By Becex, on the day before the 2k6 SPM addmaths paper.


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"They spend more time on the computer compared to the ammount of grain you consume in your entire life"

- By Myself, to Crazy mmorpg players =p.


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"In DotA, do not save Naz, you will have a 99.9% chance of dying by doing so"

- By CTZs, An advice to remember always.


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Over? Think again.

Argh, bloody addmaths, most irritating paper ive had so far and that is because of one bloody question I screwed up. Farking "hang" and "panic" on that question made my brain went "woohooo" and in the end, unable to solve it. Down the drain 6 marks..sighhh

Well anyhow, I expect probably a B4 or a C5 for it. Hopefully it'll turn out a B but since it was kinda easy, I suppose the grading graph might increase therefore id probably end up with a C. Damn. Owh well, its over and no use going on and on about it, what's next to come is phy and chem. Study time!..well actually, study + spot questions =p